A Perfect Disaster

If I died tonight I go with no regrets,
If it ends in your arms I know I was blessed,
And if your eyes are the last things I see,
Then I know what beauty heven holds for me,
This is what I deserve,
I'll rip out your heart just to see if you bleed like I do,
Every tear you made me cry,
Every promise,
Every lie makes me silent in your shadow,
In with the bullet,
Out with my heart,
Everything will end,
So I cut my wrists and black my eyes,
So I can fall asleep tonight,
And whenever you appear in my dreams,
Those hanting looks are killing me,
Little red tears on my cheeks,
Until I can no longer take it,
I love you baby was all I said,
With my finger to the trigger, the gun to my head,
Nobody loves you like I do,
Here I am torn into peices,
Yet trying so hard to remain sane,
I'm just fine,
The screwed up side of me is kept locked away deep down,
But always trying to get out,
Are you laughing or are you crying?
Tears falling down your face like rain,
Trying to deny that you never really noticed me,
Like I wasn't there having fun and laughing,
Acting like I didn't care,
But maybe now I'm gone you'll notice,
I'm so perfectly imperfect,
A beautiful disaster.