To Bean...

To Bean...
I just really want to tell you how much care for you and how much you keep me safe and I know how much you love me but I just can't say it back. I can't say it back because I'm scared. I havn't had the best role modles growing up and I can never see myself being with anyone for all my life.

I can feel the smoke creeping over me.
I can smell the fumes tunnelling through my nose.
It’s intoxicating me,
I can feel myself choking and getting light headed and dizzy.
It’s the best feeling in the world.

I love the fact that you make me so high on your sent alone,
And that we can just talk seriously the next.
You’re always there when I need you,
You make me feel safe,
And I love that about you.

You hold me when I’m drunk,
You hold me when I’m sad,
Angry,
Happy,
Or just tried.

You care about what I think,
Whether I get pissed of when you’re pissed,
Whether I eat properly,
You try and make me see that everything is going to be okay,
Even when I know it’s not.

You’re my secret,
Not a dirty one mind,
Your nothing but,
(Even if you don’t change your cloths for three days!)
I want to be together,
For as long as I can foresee.

Basically,
In simple English,
This is as far as I can go,
At this moment to saying,
I love you.