Sonnet Attempt Number Two

How can I go on thinking about you when all I want is him?
I am not a person who will lie & cheat to save myself;
Rather, I lie & deceive to cover up someone else's sin,
And so began the building of my own personal Hell.

I feel alive only when i'm with him & he's with me;
It feels like nothing can touch us if he's here.
My heart thuds so loud it drowns out everything & every being,
And I have nothing left to listen to but my dear.

I can smell the sweet love within his embraces
And I inhale the need of that swells for us to be.
I can taste the way his lips are home to fate,
Or how his tongue longs for our souls to flea.

But when I see him & how he watches for me in a crowd,
I know then that, into my heart, he'll forever be allowed.