Avoiding What I Refuse To Admit

What hides behind these fiery eyes,
Such things unsaid, brutal honesty and lies,
Many things attempted with failed tries,
With each passing moment, the body slowly dies.

What nobody is to understand,
All the wonderful things for the future we planned,
With so much force, my life you manned,
A sense of security, we stood hand in hand.

You walked away, leaving me alone here,
I turned and shed a silent tear,
See the reflection through the clouded mirror,
Messy streams of mascara appear.

Months down the road, an independent girl I may be,
The truth behind the falseness nobody's allowed to see,
To comprehend the pain of what it feels like to be me,
Alone and unwanted in this world brings not an ounce of glee.

Tears ceased to fall for many months so long,
Now easily brim over with each ending song,
Reality sets in, and I realize the wrong,
"Don't let it break you, you've got to stay strong."

Lying in the dark, my eyes flutter shut,
Wondering how I ran into this rut,
The obvious lack of self confidence I strut,
Wake up tomorrow, another new day I've got.