Shut Me Down

Sometimes the heart
can close itself down.
Tear you apart
to force you to drown.
In your own self pity.
Why can't I be free?
Why can't I be me?
Why must I rely
on this need.

An emotional high.
One Kiss.
Utter Bliss.
For one second, maybe three..
I can be more of you
and less of me.

I watch the grass grow,
I feel below it.
I put on a show,
but nobody knows it.
I kiss you.
I miss you.
But I really don't.
I can't.
I wont.

How many times can you fall?
The answer- none at all.
Because you cant break,
when your already broken.
You can't unspeak,
the words you've spoken.
Your closed off,
and your not worth holding.

My heart is used,
I'm a hollow shell.
Permanently fused
to my living hell.

So Hello, Goodbye.
Goodmorning.
Goodnight.
Excuse you,
While I live my life.