I remember.

I remember getting blood all over these clothes
Razors that sink in with a mind of their own
A blink of my eye and the stains return
I shut them tight but the image is burned

I remember when you stole my heart
You were trusted you not to rip and tear it apart
But damaged goods never last long
I never really was that strong

I remember when you took my soul
There was no way I could have left whole
Walking away from that stage
I swear, my heart dropped through my rib cage

The blood on my hands will never wash off
And the smell will never fade away
I washed the pink lather down the sink
And replaced the red with ink

I remember trying to tell you what it meant
You didn’t understand then and you don’t
Understand now
There’s skin beneath the scars, I promise

I remember the way they whispered
And I remember the shame, deep in my bones
But no matter how ashamed I was of myself
The red drip never lost its color.

I remember the disappointment in my mother’s eyes
And I remember the anger in my father’s jaw line
They talk and kiss and I feel the bumps under my shirt
It isn’t going to work because I can lie with the best

The blood on my hands will never wash off
And the smell will never fade away
I washed the pink lather down the sink
And replaced the red with ink