Disconnected

I don't care.
And I don't know why.
I can't be angry.
And I can't cry.

I don't feel for you.
Because I can't feel for me.
I don't feel for them.
Because I can't really see.

I don't see there problems.
I don't want to.
I don't see my own issues.
Why should I try to?

If only I weren't so muddled.
Perhaps then I'd care.
Perhaps I'd try to see.
Yet, I can't bring myself to be there.

I don't want to move in that direction.
Feeling anything is scary.
Feeling brings grief, and pain.
I'm just not that daring.

If I tried to feel, I know what I'd get.
I'd get tears and hurt.
Who'd want that gift?

I know not me.
I'd rather feel nothing.
I'd rather not see.

So I won't start to care.
I don't want to feel.
If I did that, I wouldn't know how to deal.