Anorexia Nervosa

What is this thing
This voice in my head
Why dont I binge eat anymore
Why is it dinner time i dread

I cant breathe slow
Ive got to excercise more
What is this thing inside of me
I wish i could control

I plan my routiene
I run for miles
I feel so guilty
Im eating all the while

I live on my own
In my head of course
I cant seem to shift it
I cant deny its force

I cant see any change
Im not getting any smaller
Im still growing, it just wont stop
I seem to be getting taller

I cant control my mind now,
someone put me at ease
Help me lose a few extra pounds
I want to fly away, on the breeze