My secret revenge

eating away
growing still
causing more pain
like a jagged pill

always there
wont go away
always a reminder
its there to stay

invisible to them
they cant see the hurt
im not like them
with their hearts on their shirt

but I show it still
with the scars on my wrist
I cant stop now
too hard to resist

get them away
but the pain is still there
the hole in my heart
its just not fair

im not very selfish
or I would end this now
"but someday they'll pay"
i secretly vow

so I close my eyes
and lose my fear
and this is how
I disappear