Growing Up, Growing Old, Growing

My silent sobs fill the atmosphere
Lost for words and forgotten hopes
Feeling so empty with nowhere to go

Use to sit here and dream about boys
Count the pedals off the tulip
Saying “he loves me, he loves me not. He loves me.”

Now the time consuming homework’s
Have left no time for dreams
While my brain stumbles on forgetful things

The countless parties have gone by
All of which I’ve had to miss
Because I was the good girl in need for speed

Yet there’s the things unconquered
When my days seemed like a blur
At the sound of my alarm, I woke up in a dorm

The study sessions soon diminished
My grades only stood so tall
I had finally graduated, after all

I did think it was over
Constant struggles and endless tests
Though the answer was wrong when I guessed

And I still remember my first place
First job I ever had wasn’t the best
But the joy of independence told me to give it a rest

While my status at the office grew
Sleepless nights returned
Fighting for the sleep I had lost for what I learned

It all became automatic then
Wake up, work, and return home
Occupied with only one living soul

Falling in love hadn’t been in my planner
Yet it happened like if it was
But oh, it was, in Destiny’s planner

Marine, Andrew, David, and Rick
Became my one true happiness
As my life grew to be what I dreamed

Though things weren’t always perfect
Anguish didn’t feel like pain
‘Cause we’ve been there through each rain

All my work had seemed worth it
When I fought the sleepless nights
And I see her counting pedals in her mind

Sitting here below the stars
As the night encloses me in its embrace
Growing up, growing old, growing,

I have all faced