What I have lost

Why does it hurt so bad,
to lose something that I never had.
To have these feelings and nothing to do,
just to sit around and wait for you.

Why is it hard to move on,
when all my feelings for you should be gone.
In my soul, you image floats around.
Always there, never hiding in the ground.
Now all I can do is wonder
on how I lost it all in a blunder.
By not telling you how I feel,
trying to act like it's no big deal.

Now I know the nature of my errors,
I just wish I can get rid of my cares
Yet I know my heart won't let me
get rid of the person who fills me with glee.
Just by hearing your sweet name,
lets me know that my feeling for you are just the same.
I must move on to a new life.
leaving behind the feelings and strife.

I am only human and I am weak,
but for you, there was a beautiful streak.
I would do anything to repeat that day,
when you hung on my words waiting to say.
Now I am on a new track,
knowing that I can't have you back.
No matter what I do or how hard I try,
All I can say to you now...is........good-bye.