10-28-09
Sitting alone in her dark-infested tomb,
She's waiting for the day she'll meet her doom.
She doesn't like who she is,
She never has.
She just wants to be what she once was.
Carefree, red-eyed, dry mouthed and happy.
Nothing could hurt her when she was in her secret world.
But things changed and her world has been shattered.
This 'drug', this horrible thing to everyone else,
Was her one escape from her thoughts and feelings.
These feelings of regret keep her awake at night,
And fill her room to the brim with fright.
Now she's got one little pill,
One that doesn't stop her thoughts, but increases them,
To a point where she can only do one thing.
As she takes the knife, she hears the words she always hoped to forget,
" You're not the girl I fell in love with. "
As she makes her precise incision, she starts to cry.
She knows he'll be disappointed,
But she can't help it, she just wants to die.
She's made enough mistakes in her short years to realize she'll never be the same.
She can't stand the sound of her own name.
She's truly hated herself for what she has been.
She's just wishing she could make this end.
With one swipe of her knife, she hopes to be done.
But she can't leave him, he's her only one.
The pain she's caused him in the past,
Is what's making what they have not last.
She loves him more than words could say,
But that doesn't seem to be enough today.
She's waiting for the day she'll meet her doom.
She doesn't like who she is,
She never has.
She just wants to be what she once was.
Carefree, red-eyed, dry mouthed and happy.
Nothing could hurt her when she was in her secret world.
But things changed and her world has been shattered.
This 'drug', this horrible thing to everyone else,
Was her one escape from her thoughts and feelings.
These feelings of regret keep her awake at night,
And fill her room to the brim with fright.
Now she's got one little pill,
One that doesn't stop her thoughts, but increases them,
To a point where she can only do one thing.
As she takes the knife, she hears the words she always hoped to forget,
" You're not the girl I fell in love with. "
As she makes her precise incision, she starts to cry.
She knows he'll be disappointed,
But she can't help it, she just wants to die.
She's made enough mistakes in her short years to realize she'll never be the same.
She can't stand the sound of her own name.
She's truly hated herself for what she has been.
She's just wishing she could make this end.
With one swipe of her knife, she hopes to be done.
But she can't leave him, he's her only one.
The pain she's caused him in the past,
Is what's making what they have not last.
She loves him more than words could say,
But that doesn't seem to be enough today.