You Will Never Understand

You thought it was a joke,
You thought it would be funny,
You laughed the whole time like there was no harm done.

What made you think it was worth all this?
Why would you decide you could judge with just a little
Information on what you perceive
with the clock still ticking on what I could be.

Things would be different if you were the victim,
You wouldn't be laughing if you has this doubt.
Myabe I'm stupid for letting it get to me
Or maybe you're horrid for thinking it wouldn't.

Every time I think of it I die
On the inside while you stand there watching
Pretending things are fine.
Pretending that I'm as tough as you delude yourself to believe.

One plus one will never mean three
but your words seem to think
You can make that claim.

Just because you have been my best friend,
Just because I'm like the sister you crave
Doesn't mean you can ever get away
With words like those and the "rating" you gave.

You will never understand..