A moment of dreadful death.

The feeling of being alone even when Im not.
This feeling of having to withdraw without trying.
This feeling of just having to go through all of this.

Whenever I begin to come up with an argument my heart begins to ache.
It drowns me with a feeling of sadness that just rises until I cant take it...

I shouldnt have felt this in Jrock,but I did.
I even almost cried because I was stuck so much in a fantasy world.
I couldnt even bare to stay seated because i was uncormfortable.
The seats made me feel like I was gonna drown or at least scream.

I hate having mixed emotions.
I hate being confused about whether I should leave or not.
I hate thinking that everytime I turn my back,things are being said about me.
I hate that this club Ive grown to love and think of as a family is slowly being crowded,slowly making everything Ive ever loved feel as if it wasnt true...