No Longer Me

Looking in the mirror
I don't recgonize the person staring back.
The eyes are dead, the skin is pale
The posture is so unreal.

Arms scarred from sharp metal
Sleeves and bracelets covering them up.
Make-up covering up the pain
A smile to lie about what I feel.

I know who I am
But the mirror shows someone completely different
As if I'm not really standing there
As if I've taken over someone elses body.

I look at my hands, my feet.
They're mine all right
But the reflection in the mirror.
It can't be me, can it?

I feel my eyes close
My heart sinks
It's then I come to realize
I'm no longer me

I picked up the knife beside my bed
I shook my head, then dropped it
It's time to make a change
Because who I am just isn't me.