The Justice In Drowning

Pain and suffering.
A plain and simple thing.
Whatever it shall bring.
I will take just to make me real again.
Swallow that pill just to make me feel again.
Take your bullet just to know I can heal again.
Stand in the rain just to know I can drown again.
Because drowning is all I'll see.
All I'll be.
I'm the first to drown, but, that's just me.
I tell the world it's okay I'll be.
So why so sad when you're looking at me?
All those tears that stain your skin.
Why can't I cry and just let you in?
But I lock it all away inside.
Living my unforgiven suicide.
Still I won't die.
For the sake of the memory.
This poison of hate will survive.
Though the water'll still thrive.
I promise you.
Through black and blue.
Like the tears stain.
As I stand in the rain.
Suffocating me deep under love you'll regain.
The justice in drowning is never plain.