My Tears, Your Blood.

trying to pick her up,
but she keeps slipping under.
i don’t want her to fall,
not ever.

but here i watch her slowly crumble,
and i’m faltering as words become weak.
i feel pressure on my shoulders,
her hands pushing as i fight just to speak.

she tells me she’s got to help herself,
but i won’t let her drown.
i’m scared to let go,
to let her hit the ground.

i won’t let her go,
i don’t want her to leave.
even if saving her,
means losing me.

fighting against her is like fighting the tide,
as weak as her heart is, she’s still strong.
i refuse to let go, not just yet,
but i won’t be able to hold up for long.

bones on bones;
she tries to push me away.
i’m scared to know what will happen,
if i go astray.
hitting the floor,
you finally won.
once i pick myself up, i’m gone.

and now her hands upon my back,
i’ve never felt so much hatred in her touch.
and i come to think that i’m unwanted;
as i’m pushed away so much.

the world flies around me.
i run to the door,
her hands push me out.
now that i’m gone,
she won’t hurt anymore.

rain falls down,
mixing with these tears.
and now darkness embraces me,
one of my biggest fears.

shadows fall over this void i call me,
and i’m blind to the world as i run.
i don’t know where i’m going anymore,
but no one said it would be fun.

i can hardly breathe,
and this cold penetrates like ice.
i’m slowly dwindling to nothing,
as it holds me like a vice.

i can’t stay out here forever.
but will they let me back in?
i want to come back home,
please, just let me in.

standing in the rain,
as this life begins to flood.
looking over my shoulder,
where her hands had just been.
and then i see; my tears, her blood.

knees buckling, i fall to the ground.
crawling back home, will she let me in?
the door isn’t locked, i walk inside,
look over my shoulder where her hands had been.

red runs down,
bloody handprints streaking across me,
weaving tales of what she’s done.
i hope she didn’t leave without me;
please don’t ever leave without me.

now, i never should have come back,
because i’m just letting everyone down.
i should’ve just kept going,
and run myself straight into the ground.

and the worst part of this;
while my life began to flood,
handprints on my shoulders;
my tears, your blood.