And You Would Never Understand

I am, in almost every way my own worst enemy
As a child nothing matters except how long you have time to play
We are free to be who we choose to be
Our minds,
heart, and, soul
are free from self doubt
because we believe anything is possible
As we grow older and, our appearance changes
as our mind develops, we begin to find flaws in our selves
I learned that no matter what, someone is always watching
It’s easier for others to judge then to understand
I let my insecurities decided how I lived my life
After a while, I learned that hating others was easier then loving them
I feel nothing more then hate
Hate for those who hurt me
those who used me, and, broke me
I am doing all that I can to fix this part of my life
I realized that know matter how much compassion I would give someone
it had never been enough
Yet, here I am still helping someone else when, inside, I am falling to pieces.