I've stopped caring

I never really cared what they thought
They're like Communists
Disobey: you will be shot
Obey: you will be praised
Though I disboeyed: I was never shot
Though I never obeyed: I was always praised

I still care what you think
You are my everything
If you want me to drown: I will sink
If you want me to swim: I will try and try
Though you never asked me to drown: I still sink
Though you never asked me to swim: I still kinda try

I've always cared about you
Without you, I would be dead
You tell me to be happy: I will be in front of you
You tell me to be sorrowful: I will always be
Though you tell me to be happy: I cannot be
Though you never tell me to be sorowful: I always will be

I've stopped caring what you think
You cause my depression
You tell me that you love me: it just makes me sink
You tell me that you're mad at me: it makes me wanna try
Though you've stopped telling me you love me: you expect me to know
Though you just told me you were mad: I always...always know