Not So Well Today

Covered in blood I stand before you
Tears streaming
I'm screaming

I cannot believe what I have done
I feel like I have finally won
But sometimes when you win you lose.

Holding onto me with all your strength
You whisper to my ear it will be alright.

I feel like I'm flying on the wind in a rain storm
Chaos all around
This thunder is an unbearable sound.

My hands are turned cherry red
Thoughts screaming from my head
I cannot believe what I have done

Silver bracelets holding my hands together
I pray to God
It doesn't matter

Sighing in disbelief
I feel accomplished
I feel scared
I feel like a god damned disease.

Taken away in a blue and red light show speeding through the air
I feel like I'm flying through the wind in a rainstorm

The door slams closed I come back to reality.

What have I done?