Cinderella's a sinner

I open this notebook
with fear in my eyes
thinking of me pleading
and asking you why?

why did you push me
further than you knew i would go?
why when i asked you if you love me
did you not even know?

In my eyes i held the tears
that i was afraid to let fall
why! did i believe i was prince charming
taking you to the ball?

there was no pumpking carriage
no fairy godmothers wish
i put all of my faith
into one drawn out kiss

you knew i was scared
in the uncharted waters we searched
but there was a lust
in my heart that had perched

and thats what i feared most
i was too willing to give in
and you were to willing
to let me commit such a sin

knowing damn well how i'd feel
and how i would wake with a frown
dissipointed in what id done
and all the people id let down