False Sunshine

False sunshine warms my face... Washes over my corpse

Thoughts begin to Erase...

Those grotesque memories of childhood past...

All those times my wrists... I wanted to slash...

All those god-forsaken days i wanted to be my last...

My sanity so fragile... It shattered like glass.

The one's i loved and lost... Now burn away in the sunlight...

Memories reduced to Ash.

I watch as they float away... In the sunshine's rays.

The light reverses my decay...

I came back to life today.

Sadness from this jaded world... It does not faze...

I smile again... I laugh in a cheerful daze...

My souls death... Merely a dream from the night before this Beautiful day.

My smile transforms as i look into the sky...

My eyes fill with tears... I begin to cry...

I remembered that the sunshine was only a lie...

And as i watch the Darkness fill the sky...

I realise... Again my soul will Die...

I drop to my knees as the cold begins to pierce my skin... My limbs feel heavy...

My eyes frozen open...

I feel the sharp pain of the memories i had for a short time forgotten.

With no way to fight it... I lay my shredded body on the ground.

The tear-drops frozen to my skin... My soul feels forsaken.

I pray to god... To feel that warmth again...

And plead with him to let it never End.