Saying Sorry

I've fucked up,
but who's surprised?
No one can tell,
I'm saying lies.

Controlling my trembles,
is the most I can do.
What should I say,
when you're feeling so blue?

Depression surrounds me,
and I'm hiding my fear.
I'm scared to say anything,
whenever you're near.

So how am I to live this way?
When you're dying inside every day?