Let You Down Easy

Why is life so hard without you in it?
Why can't I see myself like I used to?
Why do I feel that no matter what I do, I'll never make you proud?
Why do I love you, when all you've done is make me feel like shit?
Why can't I forget you, even after all you've done?

You've fucked my life so completely.
Things won't ever be the same.
And even though you're gone...
I can't help but wish things had changed.

I've realized somthing today:
I hate everything about you.
Every single god damn thing.
It should be easy to just forget you.
But you've fucked me up too bad.

At night I lie awake, I can't stand to see your face.
You're in my dreams, the star of my night mares.
I see your face when I close my eyes.
I see it when I'm all alone,
And I swear I see it in the crowded hall.

Why can't you just fade away?
Why can't I block you out?
Why do I blame myself?
But the biggest question that I have is,
Why did you let me down?

I believed you when you told me that you'd stopped.
I believed you when you said you were sober.
I forgave you when you hit me.
I forgave you when you cheated.

But I can't forgive you for leaving me.
You let me down, and it wasn't easy.