Everyday battle

I put on a mask
so you dont know im sad
i put on a mask
so you see a happy lad

Instead of letting you see
sad, lonly, and deppressed me.
i make sure no real emotions show.
i make sure i never burdan you
by letting you know.

Cause i told it was over
all the drugs and all the lies
when really everyday
another part of me dies

But i forgot all the pain,
i make it all dissaper
by doing exactly what you fear.

i just pop a couple back
and my world feels so free
i pop a couple back
so i can forget that im me

but i wont let you see that
cause it would kill you to know
that the act i put on in front of you
is all just a show

I love you so much
and i try, i really do
to wipe my slate clean
to start over new

there's no excuse i could make
that would justify this
my oh so forbiden wish
to give death a kiss

its an everyday battle
but one i must fight
so i can try to make you happy
so i can try and make it right

And sometimes i lose
sometimes i just give in
but is a slow crawl to the top
to claim a final win

But ill keep on climbing
with my chin held high
Ill keep pushing through the pain
even when it feels like im going to die

Because i want to prove
im worthy of your heart
and be able to promise you
that never again will i fall apart.