Crumble

Staring out the snowy window
Mirror of my thoughts
I wait

For my world to crumble around me
I wait
For the past to repeat
I wait
For the truth
I wait
For the knowledge that
I’m worth no more
Than a passing memory
I wait

For my strength
I wait
Loving this
Hating this
I wait

For the strong woman
A ghost to me now
I wait
For the peace that
I once knew
I wait

For the fear to eat me alive
I wait
For the confirmation
The one who changed
So much that I thought
I believed
To vanish
I wait

Remembering all
Remembering nothing

I wait.