Sleepless Nights

I keep thinking, maybe I was wrong, maybe I was right
I need to find a way to win this useless fight
Silent whispers through the night keep me down, they hold me tight
Binding me to my condemning thoughts
They replay battles that I already fought
Waking up screaming and finding that there’s nobody there
Do I go back to sleep? ...I wouldn’t dare…
Thinking back to what happened and what could have been sends me overboard and
Makes my head spin
Will the nightmares ever stop?
I wonder how, I wonder when
Eventually when I fall back to sleep the only thing I hear is my heart beat
The smooth rhythm disguises itself as my lullaby
But when I’m back into a deep sleep I start another ride
Why am I so held down and bound so tight?
It should be obvious…I lost the fight…