My Life Right Now

I don't care 'bout
Anything anymore
Death seems so close
Life is so far away
Tears fall like blood
Leaving puddles
Upon the ground
I hate these feelings
I cant control
Try to smile
Try to love
It never works
Only leaves me
Hurt and lonely
Longing for warmth
My only friend
Is my knife which
Cuts at my skin
Scarring my arms
Every time I cover up
Afraid of the truth
That I’m too far gone
There’s no tomorrow