Confused and Fear

Why cant i think
why must life be this way
why must people die so suddenly
Everything is spinning
All i see is black
my eyes widen in fright
as i try to fight back
I want to call out
"I love You dont leave."
but it wont leave my mouth
i want to bite down on my screams that ring out in the night
god help me
i cant reach for the light
seems like im tied down
everything keeps pulling me away
everything keeps dragging me further
into the dark aybss
of my mind
some one help me
some one find me
I'm lost
I'm Lonely
I'm afraid of what haunts my mind
confused cause i dont know what it is
that's it im confused and afraid
someone help me gain my strengh
where are you when i need you love
cuz this is making me wish i was closer
so i wouldn't have to deal with all this alone