Confusion, Lust, Love and deliverance

if only for a little while she makes me smile forever i know she and i will grow, together and forever we shall be one, if not as partners but as friends, i would do anything for you come rain or shine know i will always be there.
she knows i love her and i know she loves me, im happy as long as i know she's happy and thats all that keeps me sane. as long as she is safe, as long as she is happy, as long as she is smiling, as long as she is laughing. its always my best day just to know she is living her life to the fullest each and every day. with every heartbeat that she takes, those little moans that she makes- she knows i love her, and that one day i'll make her mine, i would jump infront of a bullet and die for her if only it would make her smile. she knows that i have much more than feelings for her and that i long for her to be all mine. with every waking moment i feel like im seasing to excist until i open an email, read a comment or just to hear a few little words from her devine lips. this feeling i have right now in my mind is love but its killing me inside. just knowing she is far from me its amazing how my heart grows fonder. don't you see you and me we're just ment to be.