accidental suicide

the pain is deep
but the blade is not
I'll cause no harm
I'll feel no pain
I'll just step out into a world of pain
I've done this before
thought i never would
but i can't stop i can
but my body can't
my soul can't
my heart is torn
my chest swells full of blood
it is bottomless
a pitiful of pain
guilt
tragedy
lose
death
and sin
i can't stand this any longer i feel this pain
but i really can't
i just breath until my last
until my last breath
and my hearts last beat
i shall forever intake the pain of life
and forget the great joys
and happiness of it
i will bury my secrets under the scabs from my blade
it hurts i no but don't make my mistake i fell under a spell
and it cost me my life
a Russian roulette
a blade cut too deep
a knife the soul
and blood in a once empty sink
this is the way
the way that i died
not suicide but pressure of life
and negativity