Pain, The Format of My Life of Word

If you only knew how much it hurts,
If you only knew about all the pain,
How much it kills to see all this,
How much it stings to hear it all.

Pressing through I am in hope the pain will numb,
Maybe it will leave and no longer will I suffer,
Maybe my heart will stop and continue no longer,
Pressing on will no longer be an option.

The pain you cause me is worth it,
For you my tears fall to the floor,
For you my heart beat fades to an echo,
The pain you cause is unintentional but strong.

Blindly you strike straight at the heart,
Blindly you tear me down to nothing,
I lay alone in the pain in hopes of relief,
I lay alone in the pain only to think.

Day after day I find a new pain to befriend,
The pain of jealousy is one I know well,
The pain of fear is one that is always there,
Day after day I find a new way to forget the pain.