Like I Ever Danced to Begin With (Looking Back, I Believe That I Did)

Frolic, in the dirt
Promise me that it won't hurt
To try something new
I do
Fear what I don't already know.

I am so miserable.
Is it wrong to feel this tired and old
At 15 years of age
I want a sign that I will be ok.
I'm safe inside myself
Because I don't judge what I can't get a read on.
And safe to say
I'm alone
(and scared)

Sometimes I want to hug the pavement
The hardness of it still reminds
Of a much more simple time
Between a boulder and a place that was hard
When I didn't have a clue
Of what it was like for you to be you and yet it still seems hard to believe.
That this is what it feels like to see straight.

Scars,
I've got enough
Not for viewing by the naked eye
I'm just a boy
The world feels so big.
I want smaller.
Now.

Are you still that upset?
Does it make you angrier with every step.
I see a line you toed in dirt
You said not to cross
So I laid myself down.
Sometimes I feel the rot.
Of every day in every light.
Skyline to the east.
Please drag me off and make me feel
At home.

I'M AFRAID.
I'M AFRAID.
Make me, shake me,
Tell me straight
And don't you fake.