New Year's Resolution, (Complete)

I'm not going to say goodbye
Not this time
Neither do I want to
A promise is a promise no matter where you stand
But I am saying goodbye to the feeling
Feeling of dispair
Feeling of agony
Your hunting words in my nightmares
The sweetest in my dreams
Goodbye to a love that never was
What could have been
To the teary nights and sleepless days
To the wishing upon stars
Every sparkle in my life
Every second lost in thought
And the frowns plastered on my face
No more crying in the rain
or hoping to escape
Becase your love kept me alive
In a place so high above humanity
Now I've made it to the finish line
And redeem myself I'll do
It was my New Year's resolution,
To stop loving you.
But I won't say goodbye
In my heart you'll always be
In my happy, jolly heart
Where tomorrow is as good as today
If not, better
Merry Christmas and A Happy New Year,
To me.