Christmas Spirit

And it's not as if I care,
I'm just angry.
I defend this household,
And you shatter my foundation.

You say you hate us all,
And I can't help but be mad.
Because I try ot make it work,
And it seems as if the only one.

I hate you all too,
You know.
You cause this pain,
And today I planned how to get away.

Here I come city streets,
The lights will take me now.
Am I dead yet?
I hope I am.