I Love You So ***ing Much

Im sorry
that I somehow lost you
somehow let you go.
But the aching in my chest
feels like a never ending hole.
Guess I have to hit bottom again.
Ill have to WANT to live.
But without you
theres no will to give.
No reason to unhinge
from the breaking point
that rises within.
Please
Im sorry.
Sorry I lost myself
that I gave up
Didnt fight enough
for you.
For who?
I lvoe you so fucking much.