how I feel ?

how I feel? Well I feel like there is something missing in my life. Its a thing I really need and I try so hard to find it but I just cant. I feel horrible cause I dont know what it is. Its not a object its something you cant buy and it something you cant replace.Its really important to me I have been searching for it for many years now. I feel hurt because I have been looking for it for so long and I found nothing.My life is meaningless with out it. If I dont have it I have no reason to live.Its not family or friends or love and its probly not as important as those things but I still need it to live. I cant keep living my life not knowing what it is. I feel so sad with out it in my life. Will I ever find the thing I have been looking for? Well I gusse not I have to stop searching for it and let god take care of it till I find it. The thing I have been looking for is my perpose in life so untill god gives it to me I will never know my perpose in life. How I feel? Well I feel just empty with out it.