WHY?!?!

For what reason do I exist? What's the point of meaningless life? Does anyone care if I die? No....would anyone care if I died? Why do I think this way? Am I broken? Is suicide the answer? Why am I so fucked up? Why do I love? Why do I hate love? Why won't I let anyone get close to me? Why do I keep pushing away? Why doesn't anyone understand me? Am I crazy? Why am I different? Why am I unwanted? Why must I be a mistake? Is there no place where a I belong? Is there nothing I can believe in? Have I lost all hope? Why do I feel such pain? Why do I stand being pushed around? Why can't people see what I see? Why can't they feel what I feel? Why must I be shunned? Is my body just a tool for others entertainment? Am I worthless? Why do I live? Do I want to die, or do I not want to live? What future do I have? What's the point of tomorrow if I live today without meaning? Why do I seek to kill people? Why am I so insignificant? Why do I have these nightmares? Why does the truth hurt more than the lies? Am I just a rag doll, or a puppet for you to control and play around with? Why am I such a failure? Why can't I feel any warmth while I stand under the sun? Why am I so cold? If I have a heart.....then why does it feel dead? Why do I feel so much heartache? Am I better off dead? What family do I have? Is my life one big movie for people's entertainment? Why do they laugh at me? Why must society hate what they don't understand? Why....? Why? Why? Why why why? Why?! Why why?!?!?! why?!?!?!?!?!?! WHY!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?