Feelings

I'm sitting at my desk
Tapping my pencil
Bouncing my legs
Stop fidgeting
They say
Their words replay in my head like a broken record
The might as well say stop feeling
It's my feelings that cause the fidgeting
I don't know what to do with them
I can't express them without a constant judgement being placed upon me
I try to hide them somewhere
Under the bed
The pillow
But there are too many of them
They keep coming back to me
I can't escape them
So the come out as fidgeting