Sorry

I wrote this for you.

I am sorry for not being the cheerful guy
who you think I am.
I am sorry for not being honest when you ask me
how I am.
Im sorry for putting on a brave face as the
hard times keep rolling my way.
Im sorry for being a dick, bastard, wanker,
emotionless prick just to name a few of the
things you have told me I am.
I am sorry for creating situations that have
changed your life in many ways.
I am sorry for all the emotions I have
caused you to feel.
And I am sorry for all the ones you feel you
have had to hide ,afraid of my reaction.
Im sorry for making you worry while I was out trying
to drink away my memories.
I am sorry for doing dangerous things and
inflicting pain on my self to try to block out the
inner pain I have inside my heart.
I am sorry for lieing and not going to your funeral and
pretending everything was okay, while I went out and
got shiit faced.
I am sorry for having fears.
I am sorry for my childhood still haunting me to this
day.
I am sorry for hurting you with my actions.
I am sorry for the tears I caused to fall from your
beautiful eyes as I told you the truth.
I am sorry for leaving you.
I am sorry for not saying this to you in person and
am to afraid to tell you this.
I am sorry.