Dumb And Deaf And Blind

How can you expect me to fight
This stupid war you left behind
I might’ve been your daughter
If I was dumb and deaf and blind
'Cuz anyone could see
That I had to be strong to be me.

And I was like your toy
Every time you tossed me up
I knew this last time was enough
That this was my last straw.

Suitcases packed and slamming doors
Every scream was like a song
That had me wanting
To die, to hide, just disappear.

If I was bare under the moon
The rain pelting on my skin
I would curl up and cry
I'd let the moonlight hold me
Like I know you never would.

And those years were long
I learned a lot of things
Like how it is to live without love
And how I'm really on my own.

Now this house is empty
Memory singing through these halls
It's like each year I spent was wasted
Now I'll just crawl my way along
And you never really left me
Because you were never really here
So I've got no loss to cry over
No scary ghost to fear.

So I start to stumble on, uncertain
Of where I need to be
Wishing I could wipe away
The stains that refuse to leave.

Briana Marie
August 28th, 2009
11:25 pm