Climbing to another fall

Dear Old friend,

Ive sat here for days thinking of what to write to you.
Thinking of how we feel,
How you have thrown caution to the wind for me.

I understand that That cliff we climb
has gotten so much more steeper
and you do not want to tier
You do not want to fall.

I will however keep climbing
because to not do so
would be giving up you.

I guess this letter has no meaning
you've not talked to me in days
your eyes are so cold when they find me
they make me shudder to think..
what are you thinking about?

Why do i not feel your warmth
Why do i feel like plastic?
your burning a hole in me
and i don't know how to patch it up
As i say these things
know that they have caused
me to cry every night
know that this isn't some made up lie

I think that this time i cannot fall.
colliding with the bottom would be a great mistake
i couldn't survive this again
at least before i had you
to wrap your arms around me
bury your head n my hair
and say i love you

I Guess this pain
it grows you see.
To much to bare now.
I need to let this thing out of me.
I need it to burn like my head does
I'm scared of what you
my contradiction
has made me become
I am scared
of what i cannot yet see.

I cant make do with unruly equations
or well thought out answers
i need the truth
i need your words to give me meaning
i need your insults
to keep me alive

See I've just realized
that I'm climbing to jump.

Ive been chained to you all my life now you will leave me?
Now you will hurt me?
I cant bare this..
I am sorry
for i am climbing to another fall.