Hole in my chest. (New Moon)

You left me.
It made no sence for you to love me.
But how could you hurt me like this?
I'm not mad.
Just hurt.
It's like someone punched a hole through my chest.
Even the mention of your name cuts the edges of the hole, making it bigger, rawer.
At night, I wake up screaming.
I dream of searching for you, only to realize there's nothing to look for.
As that hits, I can't breathe.
It feels like the hole in my chest has grown so big, it takes my lungs.
I try with all my strenght to forget you, but at the same time I'm terrified I'll succeed.
When you left, you took everything with you.
Love, life, meaning.
Over.
All over.