Can't Say No

Understand that there isn't anything that can be done,
and that's how it feels…
Having all of the power there is to have, in either case.
Feel sick to the stomach...
but it's just a phrase...
really, feel sick to the heart.
There's nothing left to do, except to wait.
There's nothing left to think, except to leave the thought
of the last decision alone...
the decision wished upon that hadn't really been made.
No tears will fall, no sobs will be heard.
It's a long line, stretching for miles and miles
to be waited upon and anticipated.
Know the outcome. Know the pain to be felt, first-hand.
Be killed. Slowly.
Reach that hand out, take the hand to be taken,
kiss these fingers,
kiss this palm.
Look into those eyes,
swallow any tears that could possibly spill.
Do what must be done to keep the other soul happy,
even if it destroys.
Have no words.
Have no feeling.
Worry about it all.
Hide the face.
Bury the soul…
Become nobody.
Numb it all.
Do it…make the others happy.
Hear every heart beat, and make a wish to
fall asleep.
Become so tired, there is no other need.
Have nothing else to do, only to wait,
only to anticipate.
Never hate.
Never allow the soul to be angry.
Only depress the soul…
but know that it's wrong.
Love yourself.
Stop…being…the submissive.