too much, need my red and white scarf

I'm too weak to handle it,
things over whelm me,
i get scared,
i over react,
thats just who i am.

The 6 flashing lights gave me a headache,
my mom was crying,
the woman wasn't breathing,
she was sat in the car motionless.
Then that man grabbed my dads neck,
he screamed and yelled at my dad,
telling him he was worthless and stupid,
my dad screamed for help.
I couldn't take it any more,
it was to much!
I turned away,
curling up in a bawl,
crying into my red and white scarf....

I saw him through the window,
i jumped out of the car ready,
i walked past camly to the drama room,
when i caught his eye,
i smiled.
He blanked me.
I got home and sobbed into my red and white scarf.

I was too young to understand what was happening.
Daddy said we had to move,
mommy said it would be fun.
I wasn't sure what was going on,
i was 6.. it was all fun and games.
Years later i feel the pain that i should of felt years ago.
Knowing my life would have been different,
knowing different people,
living in a different home,
i cryed into my red and white scarf.

I realise life is a lot of pain for me... i need my red and white scarf,
its the one thing i can let me emotions go to..
Have you got your read and white scarf?