What Happens When...?

What happens when
your best friend leaves you?
What happens when
you're not sure your escape is the best way?
What happens when
you can't even tell your therapist about your escape?
What happens when
you get angry at all the wrong people?
What happens when
you want to die?
What happens when
you can't even fake a smile anymore?
What happens when
you don't know what day it is because you simply don't give a shit?
What happens when
you know you deserve to die?
What happens when
you only hurt people in the long run?
What happens when
you know you aren't joking when you talk about committing suicide but your friends don't?
What happens when
you barely have a reason to get up in the morning?
What happens when
you know your best friend is moving away because of you?

*when you get the answer, please tell me*