Awkard and Silence [My New Best Friends]

We go as unnoticed as the leaves we step on,
passing down these badly lit streets.
The weather is as cold as the hearts that pass us by.
The season is dead, hollowing out the trees as if they were souls
and your eyes as as piercing as the wind.
Piercing me murderously.

I suppose I am the beast;
To be kept from warmth and civilization.
Starve me. Beat me. Hide me from the sunlight.
Give me the truth and release yourself from this false hope.
Kin don't mean a thing when a stranger lives next door.
The safety of home is gone and abandonment is comforting.

You treat betrayal like a gift when you're supposed to be my house.
Humiliation is not a friend, but you smile invitingly.
Why can't you treat me as a friend? Invite me in.
It's cold out here and my joints have turned against me.
I'm stiff and frozen from the storm and now it's your turn.
Once more. To watch me suffer.

The ice is breaking; I've fallen before.
Will you smile and watch me fall once more?
I've never tried to prove you wrong.
It doesn't matter; not this time.
Time doesn't count, it's just organization.
You'll never find me where I'm going.

The feelings of hope and comfort are gone,
leaving nothing but nausea and rotting on the inside.
Emptiness can't be filled with sleep,
It's a remedy I've come to throw away.
Realizing the lies and fake comfort,
I've accepted Awkward and Silence.