My upside lies

Please listen to this depth defing speech
as i lay down and speak out my unsanitary words
to say what i had to say these long hard years
time after time you look at me like i died
but truth is i was one alive in this emty world
needless to be how you were the one that said i've lied all these years
well who were you to speak
when you told me that life never ends
until i saw the day your life did
Now scream out and tell me that all these words are lies
and shout out to tell me where to go to clean myself up tell me where to go to see you now!
Please cry for me as i see your face fade away
please fly for me as i try to grab your hand and fly with you to heaven
its not like it was before
my upside lies have died