If Only

If Only

Laying on the grass tonight,
Under the bright blinking stars,
Makes me feel so happy to be beside you.
But then you suddenly vanish,
Into the dark of the night,
Leaving me here, alone, to fight my fears.

I stared back into the chasm of darkness,
That captured your heart,
And thought of all the good times we had together.
But if only you were here,

Chorus:
As I cried in the shadows of the day,
And erased the pictures from my mind,
I thought about the days when you were here.
If only you hadn't left,
If only you had stayed,
If only you had kept me in your arms,
Things wouldn't be this way.

Why was it not me that you left for?
Why was it her who stole your heart away?
The deceitful lies that you had whispered
Lovingly in my ears,
Are the only things left that I remember you by.
But now I start to think,
If only they were true.

Chorus:
As I cried in the shadows of the day,
And erased the pictures from my mind,
I thought about the days when you were here.
If only you hadn't left,
If only you had stayed,
If only you had kept me in your arms,
Things wouldn't be this way.

I decide now that I don't care anymore,
Banishing all thoughts of you from my mind.
Never going to care about you anymore,
Never going to think about the life,
That would have been mine if only it was me.
If it weren't for you, I wouldn't be standing in this spot,
But I am and nothing can change that!

If only you hadn't left,
If only you had stayed,
If only you had kept me in your arms,
Things wouldn't be this way.
If only you had cared,
If only you had faith,
If only I had kept you in my arms,
Things would be better than this,
Better than this life I live,
Better than this life I live.