A hidden side of me

People always seem to think it's okay...

When they play with my feelings everyday

I try to be happy,to laugh and to smile

But I just really want to be alone for awhile

They say I can't handle their problems with just a single try

I hope they feel what I'm feeling that makes me want to die

My life may seem ordinary,simple and nothing-special compared to yours...

But do you feel a sharp knife stabbing you in the heart with full force?

There's a hidden side of me that nobody knows...

Where hatred,anger and depression secretly grows

My pillows are wet because of the tears I shed

Does the darkness pull on my soul with an unbreakable thread?

Bittersweet memories endlessly flood back on my mind

If I run away from it all...Is there still hope to find?

Deep within a crowd of strangers,I stand alone...

Could somebody please guide me through the emotional breakdown zone?

If I walk away,all will be erased

But I'm secretly wishing someone is waiting for me when I reach the base...

For me,dying without fighting is the biggest crime...

I hope when I whisper my wish...

Somebody will be there to save me in the nick of time...